Iniuria solvit amorem
injury destroys love....

MY ALTER EGO
MY SHADOW FIRE

MIND Hung over with the stench of self loathing
BODY Caffeine | Nicotine Addict
EMOTION Excited | Tensed
HEART Vertigo...Head Rush...Gravity Pull...

11.04.07 --- SAGADA TREKKING & CAVING

Happy Easter All!
We just got back from Sagada, Mountain Province.

Faaaaar North Luzon of Philippines.

CHECK OUT SOME PHOTOS ON

Awww, come on now. dont be too sluggish! you know u have this urge and curiousity to do so!

SO???!!!

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The pedophile and the saint
The illiterate and the genius
The vulgar and the noble
Opposed in the human conception
Flattened in the Cosmos one,
Just some variables in the diversity of the chaos
What we are ,what we have done,what will we become?
So many interpretations,so many perspectives
Some variations in the daydream
In the illusion what can i call Myself ?
Nothing i can call my nature
No substance i can grab
But still wondering how i could have been so sick running after mirages
Just sit and keep silent,the eternal mantra
At the end of the trip,just starting to dry my mother s tears.

b.

12.02.07 --- MY NEW CANON CAMERA!!!!

alritey peepz, time to update my DA journal.the latest is that i finally have my CANON EOS 400D DIGITAL CAMERA.

is that good or what?

im so excited and for the mean time, im just reading its manual..
auto focus is ok but here im trying to play around manually.
sadly enough, i am the newest of the new with photography.
a certified newbie, i am.

all these PHOTOG terms used, i have zero knowledge of.
lens, lens lens...my oh my... expensive! but im hitting for MACRO, WIDE LENS, and IS Lens.

Anyone who knows in and outs of photography here & will take time to read this humble journal....anyone kind enough to share techniques, ideas, knowledge in photography... you are most welcome in doing so!!!

thanks in advance

i think this should be it for now... im looking forward to myself taking photos, to sharing it to DA, to learning each day and to capturing this world's life.

okidoki... til next, peepz!






FALLING DOWN
Im falling down
And fifteen thousand people scream
They were all begging for your dream
Im falling down
Five thousand houses burning down
No-one is gonna save this town

Too late
I already found what I was looking for
You know it wasnt here
No it wasnt here

I was calling your name
But you would never hear me sing
You wouldnt let me begin
So Im crawling away
cause you broke my heart in two
No, I will not forget you

Too late
I already found what I was looking for
You know it wasnt you
No, it wasnt you
Noooooo

Falling away
You would never see me through
No, I could not forget you
Falling down
Five thousand house burning down
No-one is gonna save this town

Too late
I already found what I was looking for
You know it wasnt you
No, it wasnt you
No

Falling down
Now the world is upside down
Im heading straight for the clouds
MUSE

12.12.06

Im goin' to France [Baix, Ardeche | Paris] for the holiday season.
[Inclusive dates : 21Dec 06 - Jan 05 07]

weehee!


that's the latest greatest news so far and im so excited. uhmn no, i dont have a good camera but i have a great memory. tell you about it when i get back.will post photos on when i get back.

And so, just to end my "bragging",

advance MERRY XMAS & HAPPY 2007 TO ALL MY FRIENDS HERE!






09.21.06
I've been tagged with 5 weird things about me by LAST JUNE! dang, was i this busy? or lazy? or simply not minding DA much anymore? i dont know.beats me. i was even with skyorange /wuthie in Singapore...

TOP 5 WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME aka NEUROSES :-D

5. I brush my legs and arms to my comforter and pillow to fall asleep each nite. time required: 5-10mins,

5a.I sleep with my eyes opened a little/ i speak during sleep too.

4. I eat CERELAC [baby food] til the age of 22.

3. I am hysterical at some extreme point of anguish and anger [is this weird or scary?]

2. Weird not gross?ah well, whatever... i need to fill this up. When caught in public for the need of a nose itch fix, i pick it and toss it. lol

"everybody's doing it, doing it, doing it... "
at least once in your life, no? dont try to be so hypocritical...

1.And finally, the weirdest of the weird...It occured a couple of times perhaps more lately, i sit in crossed leg position while doing No.2[now you may be wondering what toilet bowl shape i have at home -- go figure!]

ok whom do i like to tag this weird stuff? lemme see if i still have friends around here on DA... ahhh the inactive ones alright.

tereeza, tatara, spectral- hades, klutosis, thescissorman, cristo il diablo

i think that should be fine...im gonna check their journals from today to a lifetime, if they'd ever do it. haha

okay people! cheers

The Widow

He's got fasting black lungs
Made of clothes splintered shardes
They're the kind that will talk
through wheezing of coughs

And I hear him
Every night in very pore
Every time it just makes me want to

Breathe without an answer
Free from all in shame

Must I hide?
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone

Look at how they flock to him
To an aisle of open sores
He knows that the taste is such
Is such to die for

And I hear him
Every night on every street
The scales that do slither
Deliver me from

Breathe without an answer
Free from all in shame

And I'll hide
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone

Say that
Say that I'm blood shot for sure
Pay that ride on a ghost
I'm floating on the shore
Floating on the shore

Every night in every pore
The scales that do slither
Deliver me from

Breathe without an answer
Free from all in shame

And I'll hide
Cause I'll never
Never Sleep Alone

Breathe without an answer
Free from all in shame

Let me die
Cause I'll never
Never Sleep Alone

Mars Volta




07.12.06


ITALIA... CAMPIONI DEL MONDO!



07.06.06

We're going to Singapore 2moro and the weather is bad.... headrush!!!

World Cup is going to be so much fun.


06.24.06
One thing occured to me today... im a lazy assed girl. hehe. ok welcome back, me!!! what happened? why i dont update journals? i wish to speak of it no further. just simply, busy. the safest statement ever. ok, now i have time.

im getting married!!! --- nah. just jesting. how cheeky can i get, eh?!

im going to singapore on july.holidays! yippee yay yey! i wish we could get tickets for Coldplay concert. Tentative. We have too tight of a schedule. Going here and there. Mostly shopping and nite outs. Boring?! Yes, im kidding. We'll be travellers not tourist. Backpackers. Eating grasshoppers. ah ok... that's in thailand. ok. Eating SG citizens, then. Fuck, im ranting.


1 of my 'fighting' fish died 4months ago. [link]
He jumped out of the bowl. Harakiri But he has been so sickly even before. Then, so i saw him on the floor. dried and dark. well. ok and so, i stucked him inside a book. [like some flower petals] hehe.. no no... that's just too eeky.but i almost thought i'd actually do that, hey! and so we got another one. the feeling of a "replacement" simply isnt the same, if u know what i mean.

also another fish... died when we went to the mountains. maybe he got lonely alone. he's a little lazy actually and swimming sideways. that's just so funny to look at.

look at him, [his kind] [link]
Ok, i guess this should be nice for an update. a little outdated, but still an update.

I miss riding my bike. . . ajajaja...

[sometimes random thoughts gets me to finish writing a journal. sweet. ok. bye guys! hope ur all doing great... ]





Vah! Denuone latine loquebar? Me ineptum. Interdum modo elabitur.

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Shine On You Crazy Diamond

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom,
blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter,
come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!
You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,
rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions,
come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!

Pink Floyd




HAPPY HAPPY YEAR 2006!!!
[To all MY FRIENDS, My Groups and DA community]



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11.30.05

what happened to me? 2months.. ... .. long fucking 2months since i've updated me journal, it seems. alright. i moved in with my cousin . helped him with the preparations of their wedding this Dec 9. so cool.. our friends from NZ and SD CA are coming in this week.Parteeh.. get together til the wedding.that would be in Tagaytay. u can see pics of it on my account ~ishq coolnessssss!!! it's on a friday. we'd drive up there thursday nite and pro'lly spend all weekend there with family and friends.

Mmmm my DA group have had a collective exhibition called "Altered Natives" opened last Nov22, ends on Dec1. all is good. my first time for exhibiting my personal artworks. it gives such confidence..with moral support of family and friends close to my heart.. i feel my uplifted soul in the air. I will definitely post my works here.[ when i am a little less lazy] Im glad that the owner of the stocks supported me. i will surely credit her!

Im have been doing 2 freelance projects same time with my preparations of the exhibit. so my time has been sooo tangled up. not to mention the headache and stress and tension my day job is giving me at the mo.

Now, im on the edge.

The company i am with for almost 2 years is going to have a recess operation and it worries the hell outta me. How can i get a regular income with the regular bills im getting monthly? how soon til i start starving and going into my depressive mood... again.. ... ..

this is causing me tremendous head ache and shivers. we have not been paid since end of October.. i still have my adjustment in salary since the 15th of Sept. plus this 13month pay i should be getting. all for when? it isnt about i will get this.. it is about WHEN?
i have been using my own savings and it is burning out already...

money fucks the shit out of me dude!


2 months.. ok.. 2 months... in my life... yeah.. right!

finally november to remember is over. BOW!

PS: for my friends.. sorry if i have not much time to check your works. i'll make sure to find time for that.. ... ...







07.09.05 : ON EMO...

"Emo" short for "Emotional" is a typical fad sweeping the United States, especially California. Emo children typically shop at Hot Topic, because that's cool, obviously, and they don't want to shop at those preppy stores like Abercrombie and Fitch (Although the clothes are the same price anyway) If you don't have hair covering at LEAST 1 1/2 of your eyes, you're either a weak emo or a cancer ridden one. Optionally, you may have pseudo-sideburns, which is just hair put in place of regular sideburns, even for women. It's also a must to have a screen name with something similar to xXDarkxLonelyxInTheNightXx, just make sure there are plenty of X's, and even more thought inspiring words that also ensue a wave of sadness . Apart from all that, you also need to take a picture of yourself in the mirror, looking away from the camera, and sad (but you should always look sad in the first place, you stupid hippy) And post it on a Myspace account, with a header such as "Welcome to the nothingness of my life". After that, several of the more high-strung Emos (although they are far and few between) will say "w00t, that pic rulez!" GO GET A HAIRCUT.*Offset by a melody of one-string guitar solos that are barely audible*

Emo 1: I feel as if I'm nothing... a wave of eternal detriment is strewn about my forlorn soul in an epilouge of untold justice, yet unknown to me, a bleak desire for darkness corrodes my mind.
Emo 2: I agree, now if you'll excuse me, I have to develop of cutting habit just to know I'm real.
Some guy: like stfu lol!!

[Thanks!!! Joe Freeman ]

C:Hey Joe, do you want to go pick up some chicks....
J:I can't... I'm heartbroken over a girl who i dated for three months about 2 years ago. I must wait for the endless pit known as my heart and soul to finally float away with my sorrow.....
C:....Faggot.....


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When the loving heart's tiny tears escape and confess it?

The unloving belong only to themselves,
But the loving belong to others to their very bones.

~HINDU Wisdom~

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My Soul is Dark

My soul is dark - Oh! quickly string
The harp I yet can brook to hear;
And let thy gentle fingers fling
Its melting murmurs o'er mine ear.
If in this heart a hope be dear,
That sound shall charm it forth again:
If in these eyes there lurk a tear,
'Twill flow, and cease to burn my brain.

But bid the strain be wild and deep,
Nor let thy notes of joy be first:
I tell thee, minstrel, I must weep,
Or else this heavy heart will burst;
For it hath been by sorrow nursed,
And ached in sleepless silence, long;
And now 'tis doomed to know the worst,
And break at once - or yield to song.

Lord Byron




FAVE QUOTES

"But one day i realized that it was sort of empty if you werent with someone you wanted to spend some time with" -- Hob Gadling

"Observe the wonders as they occur around you. Don't claim them. Feel the artistry moving through and be silent." -Rumi

"The more I think about it, the more I realize there is nothing more artistic than to love others" -Vincent Van Gogh

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